If you’re trying to be good, stop right there. You can become competent, you can grind nade lineups and do hundreds and hundreds of scrims or hours of warm ups and aim training and movement training, and there will ALWAYS be someone better than you, you will NEVER reach the top of the mountain. If you’re playing to have fun and are having fun with the game, you should play, because counter strike IS fun, but after getting out of the grindset, all I see when I look at my friends play is how little fun and joy they’re actually getting out of the game and it’s depressing as shit, don’t be like them
NaissanceE is really good at providing this feeling in the Eldritch sense, I don’t know if it’s up your alley as it’s a pretty linear game about walking through a mega structure that looks like the eastern bloc itself went on an acid trip, but I came away with my time from it feeling like an ant on the sidewalk
I think you need to play Pizza Tower